I was obliterated and was delirious.

Chris and his Chinese War Checkers. . .blargh.

The Speed of the Jeepney is Inversely Proportional to the Age of the Driver

For the record, it was the fastest jeep I have ever gotten on.

As Merri put it, "Hindi nananampal ng tao ang jeep.."

True enough, pagbaba namin, parang nasabunutan lang kami..

The driver was probably in his early twenties.

Oh.

That gleam in her eye...

That bounce in her step...

Yep, she's drowned a rat again. (My mom's new hobby)

*types.this.as.rat.twitches.agonizingly.in.a.cage.submerged.in.a.red.bucket.full.of.water*
A sadistic little grin sat smugly on her face as she announced it to us this morning.

The rat looked upon me, gazing intently, begging for mercy with those black, beady eyes.
Oh, the pain.

I Ate Tongue For Lunch

and i didn't even know it. I heard my friend say that it was "duck."

I guess it wasn't.

My ears played a really cruel joke on me. If you don't like to eat tongue accidentally like I did, just watch out for the word 'lengua.' Yep, I didn't know what that meant. I just found out what it was when I got home and was left to imagine those things churning in my gut.

I guess the internet understands us more than we do now. . .

You entered: Eandra Leslie Maglaya Po

There are 21 letters in your name.
Those 21 letters total to 88
There are 10 vowels and 11 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 7

The characteristics of #7 are: Analysis, understanding, knowledge, awareness, studious, meditating.

The expression or destiny for #7:
Thought, analysis, introspection, and seclusiveness are all characteristics of the expression number 7. The hallmark of the number 7 is a good mind, and especially good at searching out and finding the truth. You are so very capable of analyzing, judging and discriminating, that very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You are the type of person that can really get involved in a search for wisdom or hidden truths, often becoming an authority on whatever it is your are focusing on. This can easily be of a technical or scientific nature, or it may be religious or occult, it matters very little, you pursue knowledge with the same sort of vigor. You can make a very fine teacher, or because of a natural inclination toward the spiritual, you may become deeply emerged in religious affairs or even psychic explorations. You tend to operate on a rather different wavelength, and many of your friends may not really know you very well. The positive aspects of the 7 expression are that you can be a true perfectionist in a very positive sense of the word. You are very logical, and usually employ a quite rational approach to most things you do. You can be so rational at times that you almost seem to lack emotion, and when you are faced with an emotional situation, you may have a bit of a problem coping with it. You have excellent capabilities to study and learn really deep and difficult subjects, and to search for hidden fundamentals. At full maturity you are likely to be a very peaceful and poised individual.

If there is an over supply of the number 7 in your makeup, the negative aspects of the number may be apparent. The chief negative of 7 relates to the limited degree of trust that you may have in people. A tendency to be highly introverted can make you a bit on the self-centered side, certainly very much self-contained . Because of this, you are not very adaptable, and you may tend to be overly critical and intolerant. You really like to work alone, at your own pace and in your own way. You neither show or understand emotions very well.

Your Soul Urge number is: 8

A Soul Urge number of 8 means:
With an 8 soul urge, you have a natural flair for big business and the challenges imposed by the commercial world. Power, status and success are very important to you. You have strong urges to supervise, organize and lead. Material desires are also very pronounced. You have good executive abilities, and with these, confidence, energy and ambition.

Your mind is analytical and judgment sound; you're a good judge of material values and also human character. Self-controlled, you rarely let emotions cloud judgment. You are somewhat of an organizer at heart, and you like to keep those beneath you organized and on a proper track. This is a personality that wants to lead, not follow. You want to be known for your planning ability and solid judgment.

The negative aspects of the 8 soul urge are the often dominating and exacting attitude. You may have a tendency to be very rigid, sometimes stubborn.

Your Inner Dream number is: 8

An Inner Dream number of 8 means:
You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur.

ahahahaaaaah.

nope, i wasn't laughing.

i messed up ._. lost focus, took things for granted, and embarrassed myself in front of myself.
GAH.

lookie >_<
in my class, nothing is an acceptable excuse for not doing your assigned task. i don't find sloppy work funny. i assure you that you will also not be amused by the consequences of sloppy work in my class.

as for your outline. i don't find it coherent. show how these themes are connected to one another. also, note that a series of words is not necessarily a sentence simply because you placed a period at the end of it. start writing in complete sentences and you would probably be able to come up with a more coherent outline.

jo

'jo' happens to be my sociology prof... and she's scary!! O_O (judging from her e-mail at least). Who knew??? She's soo not (that) strict in class and she's always cracking jokes... but-but-but look!! What haappened?? I swear my outline wasn't (that) bad...

Thoughts

The rainy season is starting. The sky turns into a more ominous shade, the wind howls louder and blows fiercer everyday, drizzles are to be expected every time you step outside, and you never know when a rainstorm might strike.

Even in this tropical isle which many people come to know as the Philippines, the rainy season can bring drastic changes to the temperature.

I shivered. Instantly, I recover past memories of the northern city, Baguio. It is very cold in that area as it is situated on top of a plateau. Families travel to that place during hot summer holidays. It used to be really clean and smell like pine trees, but sadly, it has been overly urbanized into a crowded, stifling place where all you can smell is the black pollution being emitted by public jeeps. I have been there a couple of times, the next visit always better than the last when i was a child, and always worse than the last when I got older and realized how much it had changed.

Sometimes I wish I was back to being that little girl in my memories. Laughing, running about, enjoying a grand family day. But then I tell myself that I never want to go through the things that I did ever again. The events after that ignorant bliss until this day are not worth those few years of happiness and security.

Or were they?

Growing up had ripped off my innocent thinking and instead plunked something heavy, filthy, and curiously metallic in my mind which I perceive as reality.

A failure. A loss. Pain. Betrayal. The continuous battle between forgiveness and pride.

A lesson in everything that reality reels in for us.

I turn the TV on again, hoping that the loneliness would pass.